Love Like Fire

Your love is like fire that burns for all to see

My only desire to worship at Your feet

So let this fire consume my life

Let Your love take me deeper,

pull me closer to where You are,

'cause all I want is more of You.

As I go over this song again and again, meditate on the simple words. Really, God's love is the only thing that is fiery. It is strong enough to burn right through the mess, dirt and filth in our lives to purify us. His love is so warm and piercing that we cannot help but just be stunned and just drink in His great love for us.

The assurance that You gave me of the current situation that we are facing is awesome, Lord. I was wondering when You'd start speaking to me about it, and You always manage to deliver it just at the time I needed it the most : )

Your joy will be my strength. Your name will be my direction - Holy, righteous, Almighty.

The ways of man fail before You as I start to consider all the man made contraptions that we are so proud of. I sat down at lunch today, and heard people talk about the Ipads, Iphone 4s and Mac Books, and I am struck by the one simple fact that God asked Job,

Were you there when I created the heavens and the earth?

Surely you're able to tell Me how they came about, Job?

Pin drop silence from Job, perhaps?

I feel myself shrink in awe of the very essence of Creation.

Who can compare to what God has made? I can't with all the available technology and money and resources be able to create a tree. I cannot create something out of nothing. I can only hope to replicate or reengineer something that has already been created.

How could we ever compare to the Master Designer of the Universe? Surely, He is God. There is none like Him.

I'm rediscovering a part of me that used to be so in love with You, God. I am in the beginnings of rekindling that fire You have stirred up again. Who knows where it will take me? But the destination doesn't really bother me, it's who is walking with me throughout that matters more : )

I'm glad You're along for the ride with me.

I know that I'll be all right

as long as You're by my side my Love

This is my Love

consuming fire

i had a weird dream but it was definitely not a spiritual attack.

in the dream, I was flying a kite and there were kites all around me. However, the wind blew so strongly that I hurriedly pulled the kite down because for fear of the string snapping and my kite flying away. it was a white kite, that I remember.

the kite then started circling violently and wouldn't come down. I tugged and tugged until suddenly a jolt of something like electricity startled to tingle down my arm and I was paralysed and couldn't stop it or move my arm. It was flailing with the kite but I could do nothing but feel the sensation of the shock. it wasn't painful, just a shock.

the dream then changed. a hand reached out to me and I could know during that time I was lying on my bed, the hand reached to my heart and pressed. Instantly, I could feel extreme heat searing into my heart but I could feel the searing heat without pain. I half woke up and the searing stopped and I closed my eyes to fall asleep again.

Once more, the hand come and this time it seared heat even deeper into my heart and I could feel the heat spreading to my whole body but the heat was greatest at my heart. the process was repeated a few more times.

finally, I half woke up and I said this, "God, you're putting fire back into my heart is it?"

After I said this, the searing ceased. And I woke up to a new day.

I asked myself if it was a spiritual attack. It was not for I would have felt and sensed in my spirit. There was peace in my dream and even the "searing" was not scary. Just that I'd never felt this kind of heat before. It was a fire that burned but did not consume. Was that how Moses felt that time at Mount Horeb?

God, You have been trying to tell me so many things since Thursday until now. It's time to make a decision already. I'm ready, but can You please send me another dream to confirm this? I need to make this decision in peace.

save me from myself

And the man looked at Jesus and spoke with much dejection. His voice was filled with perhaps the countless times of disappointments, promises of a cure for his troubled son that never came to pass. He sighs even before he releases his half hearted request.

"Sir, if You can do anything then have pity on us and try to help."

And Jesus returned the man with a gaze of compassion and love and exclaims,

"You say to Me if You can do anything? Why, all things can be possible to him who believes!"

The Bible says the father gave an eager, piercing and inarticulate cry with tears, and he said,

"Lord I believe! Please always be there to help me in my weakness of faith!"

Jesus, I know You are always there to strengthen me in times of weakness. And if I am like that father, and I come to You and tell you I want to believe but yet my faith is weak, I know that You just want one act - belief. And You can do anything.

Sometimes we always short of being worthy

Cuz I ain't good enough

but He still loves me

I ain't no superstar

The spotlight ain't shining on me

Cuz I ain't good enough

but He still loves me

thank You for loving me. the only thing I can bring to You now, is myself.

can You please show me how to save me from myself?

i'm lost and i need to be found again.

i need to be found in Your love and grace tonight.

i need a sign, God.

because i need a touch from You.

i believe but please, help my unbelief.

i am through with you

i quit pretending things are ok.

i quit trying to think that it's my fault and somehow you're fine.

i quit telling myself that things will be all right.

i quit believing that whatever I say or do matters to you.

i quit asking to "talk things out" because we've done that already.

i quit being committed for a cause that you aren't living out yourself.

i quit trusting in relationships.

i quit wanting to be your friend, it's more painful to be friends with you.

i start to realise that life is a whole lot better when i have a change of scenery.

i start seeing myself for whom God sees me for.

i start looking for the right answers in the right places.

i start becoming a happier person when you're out of my life.

i start embracing that there's nothing wrong with me, it's the way God made me : )

i start loving the people who return love to me.

i start the day by learning to say "no" when I need to.

i start singing because it takes away bad feelings.

i start enjoying my life when I realise that I have a choice to live it without this crap

this is where i begin to say one thing to myself from today onwards,

i will survive.

i will make it through.

i will live, laugh and love the way I know how to.

i will breathe and enjoy life the way God wants me to.

and you,

i bid you goodbye mentally, emotionally and spiritually.

i need to cut you out.

i don't need your good intentions anymore.

i am stronger than this.

Let us not lift our souls to another

This whole week has been full of drama. Feels like an understatement depending on how you want to see it.

Sometimes, when issues crop up they somehow make you ruffled, distressed and worried. I can honestly say that I've allowed those issues bane me for a major part of the week. However, after clearing my mind of the clutter, the truth stood out quite clearly.

God is in charge no matter what.

So be it if man, management, establishment, circumstances, rumours, gossip, lies, greed, competition, backstabbing, disappointments, screw ups, anger, laziness or whatever; I know that MY God is mighty.

He is mighty to save.

We have to be the change. Change comes from within, not from the outside. If we don't stick together, then who will? If you believe in something so badly, and you want the best to come out of it, would you pay the price for it?

This is the year for the first time in my 7 years of being Christian that I see this new form of evangelism - "Christian evangelism". Honestly, to see you stoop that low to try to win people into your club, it's just shameful. You're actually spending time making sure you have all the "right people" with you while thousands out there die without knowing the gospel? And you wonder why you are losing the respect of the people around you. The army of God is selfless, sacrificial and serving; not competitive, judgemental and calculative.

I've already had countless conversations, had a worship retreat, spoken enough to know, that God is asking for action now. In fact, He deserves our highest praise. If you've been feeling restless, and its just not enough when you sing to Him and you desire more.

If that is you, and you want to use your life to serve God, then lets come together as a different kind of fellowship. A fellowship that isn't about getting others to serve us first. Let's not be a generation that is so comfortable with the things already prepared for us.

1 Chronicles 21 in the following verses:

¹⁸Then the angel of the Lord commanded Gad to say to David that David should go up and set up an altar to the Lord in the threshing floor of Ornan the Jebusite.

¹⁹So David went up at Gad's word, which he spoke in the name of the Lord.

²⁰Now Ornan was threshing wheat, and he turned back and saw the angel; and his four sons hid themselves.

²¹And as David came to Ornan, Ornan looked and saw him, and went out from the threshing floor and bowed himself to David with his face to the ground.

²²Then David said to Ornan, Grant me the site of this threshing floor, that I may build an altar on it to the Lord. You shall charge me the full price for it, that the plague may be averted from the people.

²³Ornan said to David, Take it; and let my lord the king do what is good in his eyes. I give you the oxen also for burnt offerings and the threshing sledges for wood and the wheat for the meal offering. I give it all.

²⁴And King David said to Ornan, No, but I will pay the full price. I will not take what is yours for the Lord, nor offer burnt offerings which cost me nothing.

²⁵So David gave to Ornan for the site 600 shekels of gold by weight.

²⁶And David built there an altar to the Lord and offered burnt offerings and peace offerings and called upon the Lord; and He answered him by fire from heaven upon the altar of burnt offering.

²⁷Then the Lord commanded the [avenging] angel, and he put his sword back into its sheath.

²⁸When David saw that the Lord had answered him at the threshing floor of Ornan the Jebusite, he sacrificed there.

David would not offer an offering which he had not paid for by himself. A sacrifice isn't really called a sacrifice if you don't pay for it, is it?

Have we been serving God out of convenience? Just because "we have to"? A formality? Because you were asked to serve? Your parents wanted you to do it?

If my decisions for God don't cost me something, then it is not a real sacrifice. It just isn't.

it's time to go deeper

Will you take action? Will you make your stand?

Will you stand up and be counted?

Will you choose God or choose the ways of the world?

Will you seek His face?

Do you want to make a difference starting from where you are? If you do, and you know I'm talking about you and you know, that you know, it's Y-O-U. Let's stop the talking and start doing something for God's glory to be spread to the ends of the earth!

i'll put You in front of me

so everybody can see my love

this is my love

i know that I'll be all right

as long as You're by my side my love

this is my love