hey mom, why didn't you tell me?

i could say so many things to describe what is going on inside of me.

i could use as fluent, as colourful, as descriptive, and as brutal the words that are begging to be released, if only to stem the momentary emotions that threaten to overwhelm me.

i could and i can exercise that right even as i am typing these words right now.

did it hurt? of course it did. i would be a liar if i didn't admit that part.

am i upset? no doubt about it.

alot of reasons were given, communication established finally only to result in it ending abruptly.

one mess up, one moment of giving into weakness and it calls for an end of things.

the world is indeed a very real place.

the world is indeed full of disappointment.

was i wrong to ever invest my time and energy in this?

i still don't think so because i saw the growth and the expansion that perhaps some parties overlooked. you're not as bad as you think you are, and i'm proud of you thus far : )

i decide to still care.

i decide to still love.

i decide to still fight for what is right and believe in ideals that i try to discard.

i decide to still believe that nothing goes to waste.

paths have crossed and perhaps i'm no longer standing on that same intersection with the same people. the lights have switched and we move on our separate ways.

its the highways and the byways for me from now on.

let's call for a toast for the world's biggest fool.

i never gave up on anything until now

but others may go as they please.

i refuse to change my ideals

friends will always be friends to me

yesterday, today and the days to come

that's the end of the bargain i'm willing to keep