the silversmith

Date: Monday, 21-09-2009

Location: Nirvana, Bangsar; Delicious, Bangsar; Green Myvii; underneath a coconut tree : )

dear God,

it's been awhile since i've wrote to You like this. i used to love writing letters to You telling about stuff that's happened because I know that's how You love hearing from me. that i always tell You though I know You were always there watching.

i'm deliberately writing this because I know You love me, and I love You too : )

today, i discovered that maybe all the while i've been blind to a few things...

that I'm where I am for a reason

to be thankful for what i have : )

friends are important,

the variety you get adds spice to life

smile in the midst of impossibility

it helps to face life with hope = )

we are His children,

only a King's beloved

goes through refining

for the B-E-T-T-E-R

so yeah, God : ) somehow, things didn't get solved today but i just feel better. because the things that were told to me, got me thinking. that all the while, i knew what i had to do. all the while, i've already made that commitment to be the person you want me to be.

just that i forgot. in the face of depression and bad memories and nightmares, i somehow forgot to see the obvious blessings You've laid out around me to decorate my life.

i just read from an email about how a silversmith refines silver. the silversmith holds the piece of silver into the flames and the silver has to be heated in the middle by the flames at intense heat to rid the silver of its impurities. the silversmith has to keep looking at the silver in case it gets overdone. So how does he know when the silver is properly heated and the impurities are gone?

simple. the silversmith is able to see his reflection ; )

and somehow God, when i read this email, i realise all this is a sort of refining that i am going through. its definitely hot, fiery and painful to be refined. but i realise that you are holding the piece of silver until you see your reflection upon it.

i want to reflect your glory everyday of my life.

i want to try again. not because i'm supposed to... but because i want to do this for You, only You.

i wanna be a reflector

wanna shine for Your glory

wanna let the whole world know that

You're living in me

wanna burn with Your fire

shine Your light a little brighter

wanna let the whole world know that

Jesus lives in me.