day #2: wonder how? wonder why?

admittedly... i feel scared.

in fact, i've never felt so uneasy about things. insecurity is walling in on me once again...

in fact, i feel scared. really afraid of things to come.

somehow, the first notion is really to run and hide.

day #1 today went quite well today.

yeap, i still feel afraid. i'm venturing into new ground and somehow... i'm still scared.

but God... you are there, are you not? and somehow, i know your hand is there holding mine. admittedly, i still feel scared and insecure. but your hand is holding mine.

do i make sense? when i reread this post. i only see and feel the fear that's within me.

shall i entertain it? certainly not.

but it helps to know Day #2 has just arrived 5 minutes ago and i can face it with God's help.