things just started to get...

... interesting. hmph.

somehow I should have listened to my instincts and delved less. But having said that, I'm glad my suspicions were confirmed. Somehow, there is room to give thanks that it came to me earlier and not later.

life started to get interesting at 9pm last night. it really did :)

normally if i read about this kind of things, I would respond with a chuckle and marvel at the human intellect and decision-making process. But when you become the subject of interest, it just loses the humour.

i'm in the midst of rediscovering self-introspection and humouring myself over it.

God, strength is something that I always lack when I come to these things. Not once have you disappointed those who believe in you. I believe there's a reason behind eveything that you allow to happen on planet earth.

let your will be done in my life.

but well... if I take a few months to understand, be convicted and really live out the courage I know you are preparing for me to apply to my life in 2009... will you accept my whining, complaining, procrastinating and stubborness?

so i lay my head back down
and i lift my hands and pray
to be only Yours, I pray
to be only Yours
I know now
You're my only hope