Friday, 26 February 2010

He is Mighty to Save, He is Mighty to Save

In Argentina, a man was reunited with his son after being separated for 32 years even before the baby was born due to civil war disputes. His wife was abducted by military forces and the baby boy was born in prison and later taken away by the enemy and raised. He was never told that he was a foster child.

The child grew up in tyranny and was constantly raised with abuse and cruelty in the family. It wasn't long before he knew that he didn't at all look like his other brothers and sisters. He saw how his "father" abused his wife and how the tyrant made life a living hell at home.

His biological father on the other side, had never given up hope in finding his wife or unborn child at that time. He even had a pre-selected name for the baby if it was a son. Even as the years went by and as he aged, he never once lost hope that one day he would be reunited with his own flesh and blood.

And finally, in what seemed as fate, they were reunited through an organisation that was set on reuniting families who were separated due to this civil war and the father finally saw the son and gave him his real name and identity.

"At times I wondered what the hell I was living for. I had to find a way to continue, thinking about everyday things, hoping for this moment of happiness," the father said. "Hugging him that first time, it was as if I filled a hole in my soul."

And what did the son have to say about leaving his old life and embracing the one he was truly born for?

"Never again" will I use this name [his foster family name], he said. "To have your identity is the most beautiful thing there is."

The beauty of this whole thing was the direct parallel that I saw as God opened my eyes to see the message behind this.

Each and every one of us, we were all taken captive by the Enemy and put into a place where we were raised with lies, deceit, pain, anger, tyranny and fear. Satan had a grip on us that we didn't know and he wasn't going to be so nice to tell us that we were children of our Father in Heaven because duh God's his enemy.

But one day, enough is enough. There's a part of our spiritual heritage and descent within us... when we realise that somehow, we don't belong in the darkness. That somehow, we have the urge to look beyond. And just as how that boy in the news report realised that he wasn't part of that family... we too will one day realise that we weren't meant to be slaves of Satan either.

That is when our hearts begin to open up to God.
That's when we make contact.

And as we reach out to God, we tap into the correct "source" and we begin to embark on that journey of discovering who our Father in Heaven is.

#1: The enemy wants to steal, kill and destroy
Satan came to steal us away from God and feed our lives with lies and he tries to cheat us into believing that this is the life we're meant to live.

#2: But God gives us our names
Son/Daughter of God

#3: God gives us our identities
Citizens of heaven.

In the news report, I can see descriptions of how happy the father was to finally be able to acknowledge and introduce to the people his beloved son. What more us? When we become children of God, our Father is equally pleased to display His pride and show us off to the entire congregation of angels and hosts in heaven! He goes, "Look, THIS is my pride and joy!"

To have your identity is the most beautiful thing there is, the young man said in the news report.

It is the same with us. To have our identity in God is the most beautiful thing there is. When we find ourselves in God, there's no other place on earth that can be compared to this point where we realise that our hope, our very beginning and end is with God. To be called a child of God, to be loved in the family of God and to represent God, it is a high privilege and honor to be given to us.

Never again, will I ever want to be associated with my past hurts, my past sins and my past regrets.

Never again, do I want to be a slave to the sins that have held me back from my real life in Christ.

Never again, will I turn back and be lied to by Satan and allow him to bind me and torture me with anguish and despair.

Never again, will I forget who I am.

Because He is my...

Saviour, He can move the mountains;
my God is mighty to save, He is mighty to save.
Forever author of salvation,
He rose and conquered the grave,
Jesus conquered the grave!

Tuesday, 23 February 2010

goodbye my friend...

i can't imagine how some would feel at the moment.

do they share my feeling of shock, sadness and speechlessness?
i know tears were shed most definitely.

i heard the news today in the afternoon that Chin Tze Hung... or rather more fondly known as Ah Hung by his close friends had passed away yesterday around 4pm in a car accident in Sabah.

my condolences to his family. he died at the age of 29.
at an age where numerous possibilities would have happened, he was taken away by an accident.

i don't know how to feel or describe what it is to me.
i didn't know him that well compared to some. But for the much that I do know, I always remembered him as the one who always smiles, the one who is always kind, and caring. I remember him being a good "heng tai" (brother) to one of my good friends. I remember him being a gentleman. The rare lunches that i did go out in college with him and my other coursemates, I remembered him being polite and funny.

Ah Hung, i am certain you left us with more than just these memories. I thank you that for those brief moments that I did have contact with you, you made life brighter for the person you are.

there are lingering questions in my mind.
did he know Him? did he get in touch with Him?
where is he now?

at one point, my reason screams at me to refrain from pondering on these things. it doesn't seem right for me to want to know or scrutinize these details.
i do want to know, and yet i am afraid to know.

but at this moment, i want to take this moment and just remember you, Ah Hung. And if you are able to see this... please read THIS: "you will never leave the hearts of your friends. you have been a blessing to all of us."

Saturday, 20 February 2010

Take me

you know how you worry that things will never be the same again?

or how sometimes because of what you say or do, that perhaps there's no turning back and all would be lost because of your intentions?

i hate that feeling.
but i hate something else even more.

i would hate it if i live this life without telling you how I really feel about you.
i would hate myself if i did not have the guts to be honest to people who I love the most.
i would hate to see myself become someone who could be tossed around by circumstances.
i would hate not rising up to fight for what is right.
i would hate being a coward when I was needed to be brave.

drama happens all the time. sometimes you can avoid it, and yet sometimes it just happens and sweeps you straight into all the confusion, emotional battles and frustrations of life. if only i could just pull the plug and the drama switches off and things return to normal but sadly things have to run their natural course.

what can one do when things seem upside down?
what do you do when you feel that things are slipping out of your fingers no matter how desperately you try to grab ahold of them?

i can only just surrender things to God. Because in Him there is peace, hope and comfort. In God, it's the only place that I can escape and restore my mind to sanity and be renewed. When I am face to face with God, things don't seem so unbearable anymore because I've come to the Source of life and in Him, I am restored : )

Hear Your voice, a gentle whisper
That calls from deep within
On my knees, my heart it cries out
I'm longing to draw near

Hide me now under the shadow of Your wings
Lord, into Your presence I will run

Take me away with You
I want to be close to You
Take me away into the Secret Place
Take me into Your Arms
Here in Your presence I belong
Take me away into the Secret Place


Tuesday, 9 February 2010

Goodbye and Hello

Another year has passed by : )

Somehow, things get clearer and blur-er at the same time.
Never have I gone through before this moment of asking myself is it real or am i just being sensitive?

But I know I need to close this chapter for now and move on the next scene in my life.
I know somehow, that perhaps, things were never meant to be the way I imagined them.

Am I losing hope? I'm not. I'm just being realistic with circumstances around me and moving forward with my life.

The same way you are moving ahead with yours.

Am I catching up to you while you're running away to chase your dreams?

I've decided to let you go and pursue your dreams. I recognise my role and that is to support and to encourage all the way. To ask for something beyond that insults the very foundation of the friendship we both share.

I didn't ask for much anyways, so don't you go and worry about it : ) you know i never let my heart run away too far from my sanity and reasoning anyways

The occasional maybe floats by now and then but I know and I acknowledge that its not what I should be thinking about at this moment. I know its something that you aren't thinking about as well.

So goodbye Mr. Someone. I've said so many times that one day I'll sing at your wedding as a gift to you and your bride haven't I?

I mean it : )

Hello 2010, lets make it an awesome 11 more months!