What's Up? Camp 09

i've finally slept enough to gather my thoughts, emotions and musings about the camp :D

first of all, i give all the praise and glory to God, Jesus and the Holy Spirit. it was really all because of You that this camp was so successful. You moved in such a deep, personal and powerful way for all of us. secondly, its a hats off (if i had a hat) to all the members in the committee - Wee Yen, Lydia, Sarah, Hazel, Bryant, Ian and Kelvin Wong. You guys did such an awesome job in running the thing. I was totally impressed by how smoothly things were going about, and like Mr. Fan said it, you guys were always 10 steps ahead of us in the planning and logistics. thirdly, a big THANK YOU to my friend and sister, Colleen, for driving me back home because I couldn't see the road [because i lost my eyes] and being so understanding, because I knew you were more tired than me and you tried your best to remain alert, i love you for being so nice about it : )

now my testimony of the camp:

like i said on Sunday morning, the camp has been challenging personally for me. i came to this camp wondering what I could learn from it. the camp theme - Willing Hearts And Teachable Spirits - Here I am, send me. 

whoa.

the camp theme just blew me away. singing the song Here I Am, it felt like a rededication of my life to Him. the hardest fact that night was to sing to God, lead worship and play instruments in a state of near blindness. I have astigmatism, which means when you switch off the lights, i'm as blind as a bat! to my dismay, i couldn't even see the chords of my guitar anymore because the Fender is black too T_T

but somehow, i knew God allowed me to reach that stage. because lately, i've been asking God what does He have planned for me. I've reached a stage of my life where I've hit a brick wall. I'm not progressing that much as I want to, and even if i started progressing, I felt like i'm walking into an unknown land that I never saw or conquered before.

to be honest, it's been a small prayer of mine that one day i'd  be able to use an instrument and play so deep that i forget the crowd and just allow the Spirit of God to flow out from me. I'm a person who gets totally irritated and disturbed real fast if i notice that lyrics are spelt wrong, the music goes off key and the people don't respond. it makes me so upset that I can't focus anymore. 

but that night, i had no choice. I had to let go. and perhaps letting go of the natural, made the supernatural emerge in a way i never experienced. for the first time, i played the keyboard on stage in a way i never did before. to a point where i just closed my eyes and let it flow. then the ministering part as well was totally awesome. i only prayed for four people - jon teh, keiffer, tetsuo and sarah - but those were the most anointed prayers i've ever prayed so far. words were just spilling out of my mouth to a point where i couldn't stop myself and allow my mind to find the right words anymore, they just came. I knew God had something special for these 4 young people. Already one of them has told me that they have a call from God :D

when Philip and his wife came to pray for me, it was a first time experience playing the keyboard and being ministered to at the same time. i felt myself going deeper and deeper, hearing confirmation of my ministry and gifts were also very important to me. for a long time, i had wondered if my gifts were gone or in hibernation. sometimes, you look around and you wonder if God would ever use a person like you - full of mistakes and imperfection - but that night, i knew God was not finished with me yet. He had more for me and confirming me of my gifts and ministry was something that He knew I needed to hear. i felt so loved by God that night.

the camp is truly a success because the presence of God moved in such a way i've never seen before. lives received breakthrough, hearts were open to receive the gospel of peace and grace, many were called by God to serve Him in various ways. it was truly a night to remember. 

its not the end yet, guys! we have got to keep the fire alive, because we're not going to be a generation that gets touched by God and then turn away and forget what we've seen and tasted. lets allow the glory of God to be reflected in our everyday lives as we strive to keep our faith together as a family of God, as an army of the Lord! 

i remember what lydia shared in the morning about the crown of thorns. Jesus did everything for us, so that we could live : ) and when i look at her sharing, something in my heart tells me that she's ready for the next stage of her life. lydia, you are going to do great things for God, don't let go of the words that God has put into your heart. they will take you through the stages that are to come : )

with this I close with the lyrics to the song we sang that night:

Here I Am

Something in my heart

Is burning like a fire

I want to live for You

I need Your touch right now

Fill me with Your power

Power to live for You, my God

And I will not be moved

I will stand for You

I will go where You send me

Jesus take me now I am Yours

I am Yours

I lay my life on the altar

Everything I give to You alone

Here I am

Here I am

Here I am, send me

Here I am, send me