I have decided, I have resolved.

Up at Chefoo... which is the mandarin equivalent of "praying for blessings", I think all of us got a hearty dose of blessings upon blessings. Prophecies, deliverance, healing, rededication, revelations... the list just goes on. Not a single person was not touched by His awesome presence.

From the first night, I heard a wind howling amidst our worship. The second night, chains were cracking and breaking under His power. The final night, there was sound of the pitter patter of rain in the hall. There was an evident presence of God so strong that I could just sit there and feel the warmth of God start to burn in my gut without anyone laying hands on me.

I remember sitting on the floor sobbing my guts out, telling God just how much I loved Him and just how much I feel so small in His plan and I wondered how I'd ever fit in. The vision I saw next was His hands, both His hands were outstretched to me, He was clothed in white and He beckoned to me to come, COME, COME! I raced to Him, or rather, I was drawn to Him in an instant and I felt His love consume my very being. As I remember clearly, all He wanted me to do for Him was to experience His love at that moment, to be filled to the brim and overflowing with His pure, sweet and gentle love. I cried not just because of how small I felt, but out of sheer appreciation of just how deep and wide His love was for me. I cried in awe of His love, His exclusive love for me! And amidst that powerful touch of love, He gently impressed upon my heart,

"Without being filled with My love, nothing can be done."

True indeed. The world doesn't need another bunch of holy-molies telling people how wrong they are, or how much they've sinned. We need a band of people, a motley crew, that will go around telling and singing of the love of God. We need to present the world with a correct standard of who is God and what God is doing in our present times.

Love really is the answer to the world's issues. Receiving the love of God and His forgiveness opens possibilities like never before. We, the Church of God, have to rise to that level of understanding and receive His grace in order to be agents of grace in return among the "living dead" of our modern day society.

If you aren't capable of receiving love, how do you give love in return?

And so I will allow my God to whisper His love songs to me every night before I sleep, I will sing in return my love to Him as much as I can in my daily circumstances. That as I abide in His love, I will learn to lean against the heart of Jesus and know what is in His heart deeper and deeper each day.

And oh, how He loves us so

Oh, how He loves us

How He loves us so