hey soul sister

Watching Cinderella Story in the middle of the night, HMMmmmmHHMMMHHM....

I think it's been ages since I wrote to you in particular. Idealistic as it sounds and you probably know me well enough; in actual fact, I do believe in happy endings. Not the kind where you live happily ever after, but rather the kind that works out in the end because you've been faithful, because you've been persistent, because you've never given up, and of course because you've given your whole heart into it for 100%

that's my form of idealism.

I will accept you for who you are and what you've set out to become :) sometimes it gets kind of bittersweet to see you move on with life and enjoy your time with a circle out there that I have no access or right to question. at times, it's on the tip of my tongue and I feel like coming clean and saying what I've been wanting to say for so long...

but I stop short there.

if i can't have the part I want, I'm not ready to lose whatever that I currently have either. i'm not ready to be selfish and prod out things that might make us lose our friendship with each other.

so why does my heart feel the occasional ache?

i promise, I'll grow out of it. I promise that i won't hold you back and I'll hear you out provided that there is two way communication. i promise to always be there because that's what our friendship demands of me.

we're on the same road, but clearly our eventual path will lead to parting ways. and when we do, I will tell you what I've been storing within me. somehow, talking about it now, makes it awkward and that isn't what I want to accomplish.

one day :) don't worry, it's a promise that I made to myself as well.