Saturday, 11 December 2010

Astronomical Grace

I recently watched a video where the preacher talked about how awesome and great was the creation of the universe. He showed pictures of the planets, galaxies, the sun; he wow-ed the crowd with stunning numbers of how long it would take to travel the whole span of just one light year. He silenced the audience into awe as we stared at the image of one tiny, pale blue dot in space in the far distance when the Hubble Space Telescope transmitted images back to earth.


That tiny blue dot is us. I can just use one of my pinky fingers, and I would have not just blotted, but swallowed the entire existence of the blue planet we call Earth.

How small we are in the eyes of God!

When we look at that blue planet, the interesting thing is it's a whole mass of blue and white. Out of the earth, we look upon this planet and realise that you can't see anything else. All the wars, fights, nations, traffic, people, animals, issues, law, order... You can't see any of those. Everything just looks uniform, blue and white. That's all.

We are that infinitely small in the eyes of God. Wow.
And out of that infinitely small, near to nothingness in the eyes of God... He decided to love us.

Who are we, that God should consider loving us, mankind? Sometimes we think, isn't the universe too big to only have one planet earth covered with living people? Maybe from our perspective it seems so.

But if the universe was made THAT big on purpose so that God could show His majesty, glory and awesomeness, then the universe would be just the right size for Him to be there for us to discover Him.

And again it hits me, that we are so small to Him, our solar system is but just a tiny dot on the Milky Way, and the Milky Way is but just one small galaxy in the known universe... let alone there is still the undiscovered Unknown Universe?

Wow.
How can we not see Him in this grand master piece of Creation?

But what is far more out of this universe is that God, the Creator of all the things we see around us and the higher heavens in outer space, He chose to do something unimaginable. The Creator stepped down onto earth - that tiny blue speck of dust - and died for all of us.

We receive His grace for our lives knowing that we are but just a speck of dust floating in space. We receive His grace knowing that it isn't by what we do, that we can impress Him so much that He has no choice but to save us. We are so small? No matter how big our achievements are, the biggest achievements on the face of the earth might need a magnifying glass to bring to His attention if he were looking at the speck that we are :p

And in knowing this, I am in awe just how much He has shown His love to me. Especially for the past months. His loving kindness. His mercy. His redeeming love. His standing up and defending me when enemies pressed around and demanded my life. So many moments where I realise just how unworthy I am at times when I am unfaithful.

But the point is, it's not about me.
It's all about Him.
The heavens declare the glory of the Lord.
And even the rocks cry out to praise Him.

When I realise it's all about Him and not me, I begin to see that those around me are loved equally by Him. Regardless of what we've done or not done, grace is God at work, when man has failed in accomplishing.

By my strength or weaknesses, I can never increase or decrease the love that God has for every human that He created into being. By my setbacks, it does not deter Him from loving me just the same and accepting me as His child. By my failures, He does not use it as an excuse to bring a list of "to-dos" in order to regain His favour and love.

No, I ain't good enough, but He still loves me :D

And somehow, may we ALL remember that Christmas celebrates the birth of Christ. We celebrate Christmas because that is the day when hope came into mankind. His death brought us back to life so that we may proclaim the good news to those who have yet to hear it for themselves.

God has given us that role, to preach the good news. To tell those who think they have no return that there is a return. It isn't by penitence, it isn't by remorse, but the return comes through forgiveness and love.

For love, hopes all things, believes all things.
Love keeps no accounts of wrong doings.
Love never parades itself.
Love is not selfish, it is patient; Love is kind
Love is not jealous
Love covers a multitude of sins

Understanding the concept of Love with your brain works easy. We think we've got it all figured out and one fine day, circumstances will come to test your heart if what was learnt earlier had become a living conviction in the deepest part of our lives.

Love can be tested, and only true love triumphs. That is the love that Christ gave on the Cross, and it triumphs over sin and temptation.

Merry Christmas.

Wednesday, 8 December 2010

Life Lessons in December 2010

It has been a long period from November 25th until today.. exactly 14 days if I'm not wrong :)


Lessons that I've learnt so far:

#1: Empty vessels make a lot of noise when they are leaving the dock. They are really hollow on the inside

#2: Vengeance really belongs to the Lord. In the cause of the storms that have come, I really didn't need to do anything except be honest and commit everything to God, in the end, He revealed and is vindicating me.

#3: Loving despite disappointments is a long and hard lesson for everyone. It means me loving you even though I'm disappointed in you. Real love demands that, anything short of it is a lie.

#4: I have learnt to recognise comrades in the face of real circumstances and challenges cropping up. I salute you for not abandoning ship. After all, if Jesus is in the boat, why worry right?

#5: I have learnt that being a leader is not easy. I am glad criticism brought out the person that God has always destined them to be, and I am proud of all of you.

#6: Being the forgiver and forgiven is much more blessed to be the accuser and the accused. because it's Grace vs Works and we all know who won that battle on Calvary in the name of Grace :)

#7: In all circumstances, just surrender it to God. Taking matters into your own hands, makes it kinda sticky and unpleasant.

#8: Working up the guts to face issues in the right and honest way is essential. People don't just remember you for the end result, the process involved is equally important. That's how respect is earned - from what you got in the end and HOW you got to the end in the first place : )

#9: I know who are my true friends and whom are my enemies. You can recognise them straight on by how much they strive to protect you instead of revealing your weak side to the enemy.

#10: To be imperfect and be content that God's grace is at work when I can't do it any more.

Saturday, 4 December 2010

I'm letting go, and letting God

Awards night came and gone, but I am glad that with the hustle and bustle, the long practices for the drama and dance and finishing the backdrop... WE DID IT :D :D :D The drama was deemed a success despite the initial glitches.

Most importantly, I am glad the crowd was touched by the performance. Some told me that the presence of God was strong and some cried at certain scenes. Applause was heard for various parts, hats off to a scene where "LOOK AT ME!!" came out of the blue, giving me the script writer cum director a big shock but it was all in all a great performance.

Special thanks to the drama cast, the backdrop artists, the stage crew, the dancers, Colleen, AV and lighting crew and all the other supervisors and students who gave us their support. This drama was really an offering to God and we hope to live out the theme "what would Jesus do" in our own special and dynamic way.

Things got really interesting after that night. A whirl wind descended upon my life and in space of a week, my life has been turned inside out, upside down, sideways and byways. Unexpected drama and suspense have blanketed my every thought.

It is perhaps inevitable that things have to come to an end soon and somehow, I feel that hard tugging at my heart when I go through photos, videos and notes written by some close ones to my heart. You have no idea just how many times in a day I grapple with the reality and turn to my idealism for comfort.

I am still an idealist looking for a rainbow after the storm. Would God grant me a rainbow again for my future?

What makes it ache so much is when I am reminded on an almost hourly basis through my thoughts just how much I believed that I would be there forever. That somehow I was naive enough to think that things would never turn for the worse. I was hopeful and idealistic enough to believe that I would never need to come to this stage or situation.

Was I too idealistic to apply my faith? Even until now, I am idealistic and placing faith that somehow that God, You have to come through.

That night, someone said to me in desperation.

"Go and tell them, Miss Cath! You have to go and tell them! I know that after you tell them, things will be all right. Please go and tell them!"

I feel desperate now,

God, go and tell them please! You have to go and tell them! I know that after You take control, things will be all right. Please go and tell them!

God, please?

Please...

Or my heart will break on that day if I lose them. It just might never recover :'(