gotta take a little time

i wonder if you hurt tonight?

i wonder if you get engulfed in fears and have no way to escape?

i've been emo for the past 2 days and i didn't really tell anyone in detail why.

somehow, i know these things shouldn't get to me because i have put them behind me.

but i'm only human.

i have feelings.

and yes, it does hurt.

perhaps you never saw it and perhaps you never knew it mattered that much to me.

but tonight, i just wish you'd read this and understand that life doesn't revolve around just one person. it's much bigger than that. the world is made to contain other kind of things as well.

you call it sad? then am i to be called sad as well?

i could have laughed out loud right at your face that time.

but i didn't.

because it hurt too much.

but i know that things are more to what the eye can behold. i will hold firm to the promise that this is a season of change. most of the time change involves hurt and if i must hurt, in order to change, then so be it.

Lord, I'm available.