Dear Friend,

Dear Friend,

I know you are somewhere out there. Those moments when I feel i need a different kind of comfort, the times when I just need a pair of arms to give me a warm embrace to console my broken pride. You're out there, somehow I know it.

The time or space that divides us doesn't really bother me. What bugs me is that I don't know your name yet. I don't even have an inkling of what you look like. But somehow it makes me wait all the more eagerly and anticipate just how you will be and how your voice will sound like when it speaks to me on the phone.

What kind of person will you be? I hope you have a sense of humour! I hope you will bear with my lame moments when I go all hyper and talk a lot of nonsense to de-stress! I know you're going to be understanding, sensitive and yet be firm about what you want to say and do. You know just how much I hate a person who has no convictions or their own opinions.

I wonder if you'll find me interesting in return? Will i fulfill what you want in a woman? Am i too noisy, demanding for you? If you do the cooking and I do the grocery shopping, will you mind? I like my rooms to be pastel in colour, can we negotiate how and what colours we'll choose to paint the rooms in the new house? Let's get a car that our kids' friends will say, "whoa..."!

Oh, there are just so many questions that i would like to ask you when you come around! I so look forward to those moments where we will learn to pray together and bless our futures together as we plan and organise our lives around one common purpose to glorify God in our journey together. I know i shall feel that knowing you has been the greatest blessing that He has given me and I hope i shall be a blessing to you in return as well.

I pray that one day when we meet, we will be given the wisdom to know that we're sharing a burden together. That we're in this not to complete each other but to be a help to each other. To utilise our different strengths and talents to build a family together. No longer it's "your thing" or "my thing".

I'm looking forward to that day, when we say "our" : )

I can almost feel your hand holding mine, and we feel secure of each other. doubts will come but time will be the test and the love we share will erase all fears and build a foundation of faith, hope and love. and those same hands will raise up a future generation that is secure on the testimony of our matrimony.

Until then, i shall close this letter. I know you haven't come yet, but you know that i love to imagine how things will be like. I'm sure you know how idealistic, fanciful and dreamy i can get at times. And I know you love me because of that : ) just as much as i love you for accepting me the way i am and loving me anyhow, anyway.

I haven't met you yet, but i already love you. One day, Mr. Someone. When I meet you, i'm going to show you this blog post. It doesn't matter if its a laughable matter to those who read it now, its my way of preparing my heart for you. that i know, God is preparing you for me. And when we do meet, can i read this to you? and read it at our wedding too? :p

love,

Catherine

p.s. i love you