i'm glad for the rain

at this point of time I feel that I've burnt my bridges, cut off all ties and let go of things that are secure and comfortable to me.

the interesting thing is... I'm excited about that.

if you would ask me to substantiate my actions, somehow... I do not have an answer to back my actions. Every attempt to explain my situation seems like a feeble option to give a polished and well-versed excuse. 

if you understood me well enough, you would know I would rather keep my silence than to lie about my current situation. I would rather hold my words than to simply produce a statement that I know that I don't believe in. 

I have to be honest with you... I have no idea why I'm doing all of this right now. I really don't.

if there is apprehension in the future that would come my way, I'm ready to face it. In fact, I'd rather go through all of this than open the door to more skeletons in the closet. Whose closet has the most skeletons doesn't really matter at this point of time.

all i can say is... if you have questions... ask me in person - sms, email, call, MSN or Facebook - i'd rather just tell you from my own mouth what I'm going through now. will you say i've changed. yes, i have. for the better/worse? no one is a better judge than God at this point.

i'm just trying to be myself. to rediscover something that I think i've lost. I'm on the track of a season of change...  a season of liberty that will open up paths that will be totally different because my perspectives are changing.

love me, hate me, misunderstand me, accept me, scold me, taunt me, praise me, question me... you can do so many things to me right now...

... but you will find that from today onwards that it will all not affect me. 

because i've found the perfect person to depend on... and i'm feeling great :)