the reality of life

Can i be totally honest? Like how my blog title is?

... I need to spend more time with God. I think I've been treating Him like a Coke machine and a towel. When I need my quick fix.. I throw in a few coins and hope for a miracle from Him. When I make a mess, then I use the towel to wipe it up with His help and I go on living as if I don't need Him until the next mess.

I know. God doesn't want to do damage control. He'd much rather be pouring out blessing into my life.

I know that. I really know that.

I just need to hang on to His promises and not turn aside from them.

Jesus, I need You. I think I'm messed up and You know it though the whole world doesn't.