Life Lessons in December 2010

It has been a long period from November 25th until today.. exactly 14 days if I'm not wrong :)

Lessons that I've learnt so far:

#1: Empty vessels make a lot of noise when they are leaving the dock. They are really hollow on the inside

#2: Vengeance really belongs to the Lord. In the cause of the storms that have come, I really didn't need to do anything except be honest and commit everything to God, in the end, He revealed and is vindicating me.

#3: Loving despite disappointments is a long and hard lesson for everyone. It means me loving you even though I'm disappointed in you. Real love demands that, anything short of it is a lie.

#4: I have learnt to recognise comrades in the face of real circumstances and challenges cropping up. I salute you for not abandoning ship. After all, if Jesus is in the boat, why worry right?

#5: I have learnt that being a leader is not easy. I am glad criticism brought out the person that God has always destined them to be, and I am proud of all of you.

#6: Being the forgiver and forgiven is much more blessed to be the accuser and the accused. because it's Grace vs Works and we all know who won that battle on Calvary in the name of Grace :)

#7: In all circumstances, just surrender it to God. Taking matters into your own hands, makes it kinda sticky and unpleasant.

#8: Working up the guts to face issues in the right and honest way is essential. People don't just remember you for the end result, the process involved is equally important. That's how respect is earned - from what you got in the end and HOW you got to the end in the first place : )

#9: I know who are my true friends and whom are my enemies. You can recognise them straight on by how much they strive to protect you instead of revealing your weak side to the enemy.

#10: To be imperfect and be content that God's grace is at work when I can't do it any more.

I'm letting go, and letting God

Awards night came and gone, but I am glad that with the hustle and bustle, the long practices for the drama and dance and finishing the backdrop... WE DID IT :D :D :D The drama was deemed a success despite the initial glitches.

Most importantly, I am glad the crowd was touched by the performance. Some told me that the presence of God was strong and some cried at certain scenes. Applause was heard for various parts, hats off to a scene where "LOOK AT ME!!" came out of the blue, giving me the script writer cum director a big shock but it was all in all a great performance.

Special thanks to the drama cast, the backdrop artists, the stage crew, the dancers, Colleen, AV and lighting crew and all the other supervisors and students who gave us their support. This drama was really an offering to God and we hope to live out the theme "what would Jesus do" in our own special and dynamic way.

Things got really interesting after that night. A whirl wind descended upon my life and in space of a week, my life has been turned inside out, upside down, sideways and byways. Unexpected drama and suspense have blanketed my every thought.

It is perhaps inevitable that things have to come to an end soon and somehow, I feel that hard tugging at my heart when I go through photos, videos and notes written by some close ones to my heart. You have no idea just how many times in a day I grapple with the reality and turn to my idealism for comfort.

I am still an idealist looking for a rainbow after the storm. Would God grant me a rainbow again for my future?

What makes it ache so much is when I am reminded on an almost hourly basis through my thoughts just how much I believed that I would be there forever. That somehow I was naive enough to think that things would never turn for the worse. I was hopeful and idealistic enough to believe that I would never need to come to this stage or situation.

Was I too idealistic to apply my faith? Even until now, I am idealistic and placing faith that somehow that God, You have to come through.

That night, someone said to me in desperation.

"Go and tell them, Miss Cath! You have to go and tell them! I know that after you tell them, things will be all right. Please go and tell them!"

I feel desperate now,

God, go and tell them please! You have to go and tell them! I know that after You take control, things will be all right. Please go and tell them!

God, please?

Please...

Or my heart will break on that day if I lose them. It just might never recover :'(

patterns are so predictable nowadays

if you're sniffing through this for some treasure, i hope you it's something that is God-approved :)

Awards Night was awesome. So many comments of the drama :) So many compliments on how moving it was, how strong the Christian message was, how tears were shed at the emotion felt through the scenes, how the props were well done and etc. All glory to You, Jesus Christ! I knew it was all because of You sustaining each and every one of us for the drama and Awards Night 2010!!

Life can throw lemons and really sour ones at you. However, I'm an uber big fan of lemonade fortunately for me :D so intead of throwing out the lemons, I reuse them instead for my consumption and I make something worthwhile out of it. Throwing lemons isn't really such a wise decision, it's a waste of time. Making lemonade is so much better, don't YOU think so?

If Daniel's friends refused to bow down to the idol and would rather be put through the fiery furnace...

... so will I.

Because I know, his three friend's walked in that fiery furnace unharmed. There was a fourth person walking with them. I am positively sure that God walks with me all the days of my life and He will not allow me to be burnt. It is of no surprise the enemy's weapons are fiery in nature, but those who dwell under the shadow of the most high will not perish.

If God is for us, who can be against us?

It is so amusing to note that when you are doing the right thing, somehow or rather, there is Someone who isn't that happy. There are always circumstances that will crop up to threaten to finish you up, or sometimes it comes with a "push" out of the blue just to shake your faith.

My God is so big, so strong and so mighty, there's nothing my God cannot do, for you!!!

For your information, I spent the whole of Saturday enjoying myself in Genting. I went to the theme park, had lunch, took almost 400 pictures of lovely people, water, spiders and wedding rings. I had an awesome time up there and ended it with a superbly scrumptious seafood dinner at my favourite crabby corner :D

I'm glad I took the time to enjoy myself. Things are in perspective and I wonder if you could have done the same? I'm just wondering... : )

because.. when I am afraid, I will trust in God.

but when you are afraid, where and who do you place your trust in?